I cannot believe what is going on now. The travel expenses for work are killing me. I have to take two days off this week, because I don't have enough money for the commute and it's expenses. Today in the mail there was a letter with information about various forms of assistance due to unemployment. I have not even been let go yet. The letter is from Pennsylvania, which is where the main American printing site is. We have been told that the first week of July is when we will be cut, but no official announcement has been made to the clients.

This transfer is killing me financially. The whole situation cannot come to an end soon enough for me. I've done more overtime in the last two months than I did all last year. We're still being taken advantage by the clients. I end up sleeping on the train to and from work every day. I never know if I will get out on time, or be stuck in Boston.

Things are still an unpleasant blur of insane nonsense. Last night I did not get home till 9pm from work. The commute takes so much time and money. We have been told when our last week will be, but who knows if it's a "bait & switch" or to be believed at all.

Working while loosing so much money on a daily basis is maddening. It's all ready like I'm living on unemployment.

I'm having a never ending battle in an attempt to keep the kitchen clean. So, pretty much everything is typical for how it has been for a long time now. I'm so bored professionally with the situation. Waiting can't last forever, but it sure can feel that way. It turns out that my severance won't be the massive amount I expected, it's going to be much lower. I took a gamble not looking for new work while this whole thing started slowly so long ago.

A couple weeks ago we went to Sakura Toyko for the first time since the new renovations. I had such a nice time, hopefully we will go again. I wish I knew how to make the onion soup.

Well, the latest stage of the beginning on the end "sort of" happened today. We've been told we will stay in Boston till the end of June, and will get more information maybe today. The situation was bad enough to begin with, now I'm loosing a large amount of money on travel and am gone all the time, as welll as being at the mercy of others when it comes to getting out on time.

I spend a total of three hours a day on the train and have to leave the house by 7am, as well as fighting traffic in a near by city to get to my train on time. This has cast a shadow over everything.

Spring is finally here. Our new cat loves sitting in the kitchen window, watching all the animals. Today the cats most likely will be able to hang out in the sun porch. I'm hoping for a nice peaceful weekend.

Work has been nuts. I'm constantly having to work a little bit of overtime, which due to taking the train, translates into loosing a couple more hours out of my all ready limited day. Next week is the end of April, so there is a massive chance we will be cut at the end of the week.

The large antique store we go to all the time is expanding again. Many years ago it used to be a cidar mill.

Last week I got a very good hot dog and crawfish. I hate crawfish. I think it was just the ones from where I got that made it so bad.

The coolest tweezers on the planet!!!!!!!!!!


Two low end violins and a fake one. I will work on them for decoration pieces.

I have not even had time to upload any photos of taken while here in Boston the last couple weeks. I've been to Chinatown so many times. I may go to the aquarium today to check out the seal out front.

In general I'm getting very stressed and burned out over what's been going on. Each day is so alike now, it's becoming depressing in itself. So much effort is being totally wasted on nothing now, even more so than any other time prior.

Next week will be the one year anniversary of my Father passing away. I miss him very much.

I'm not sure what I will do this weekend. Part of me wants to head out to a large Asian market. Thankfully  I have another three day weekend coming up, so I guess I'll just play things by ear.

I'm so anxious for flea market season to start.

I'm still tied to the tracks. We got to hear about more people getting cut in PA and NY. I was shocked I made it passed last Friday. I'm not in the clear by far It feels like all my life is just train rides and waiting for it to be all over with.

At least with the warm weather coming there will be some adventures, even if they are slight and boring to most. I was really expecting a great score of audio and video from Chinatown. At least I was able to find some things for future doll work. I also have spotted a huge fabric store in a nearby city. I am really looking forward to seeing that.

For the most part this spring will be full of the typical cleaning. I'm not waiting so much for unemployment as I am just for the wait itself to be finally done.

In spite of all the waiting and uncertain future, I am very hopeful.

I am still not used to things at all. Spending so much time, while knowing full well what will happen to me in a few weeks is insane. I'm trying to think of the positive aspects of this, even though there are very few. I still can't believe I'm working back in Boston, especially in this area.

Other than that spring cleaning has started at home. I'm hoping the cats won't scratch the screens up in the sun porch. We will also be putting in an antique claw foot tub in the bathroom in the coming months. There is so much to do at home. We are also trying to figure out a storage solution for sewing fabric.

I've been fighting off the urge to buy a new amplifier half stack. AnnMarie is against it. There's nothing wrong with the amp I have now, I'm just itchy I guess for some new goodies.

My Monday through Friday work days are the same, so everything just blurs together in one mind numbing mess of mush. The weekends fly by even faster now, leaving me feeling as if I have even less time to do the things I need to. The trick is, things could be much worse and I've been through things more terrible than this.

So, things are slightly boring, cold & grey out too much, and feeling like a big constant holding pattern. Oh well.